Tricky

Sometimes your mind can be your biggest enemy. You start thinking about all the things that can go wrong, you start to believe that nothing will ever be ok and that you are worth nothing. Our mind can be our worst enemy sometimes, but we must fight it. We need to start thinking positively and believe that everything will be ok. We need to start trusting in people and forget about what can happen if we do. It's easy to get sad and jealous when you care about someone so much. But we must learn to trust them. After all life is about taking risks, making mistakes and learning from, and loving and forgetting.

Learn to look back at your life and learn from all that has happened. Instead of looking back at your life and regretting every choice you've made be happy that you've made it 'cause it has made you the person you are today.

When you start to think that you are worthless or that no one is on your side. Turn those thoughts off and tell yourself you are worth it. And take a look around and realize how many people love you and care for you.

Reminder...

Our stories, our thoughts
Our memories, all gone

What to do, I've stopped feeling
Where to, I've stopped seeing

I scream, HELP! But nobody comes my way
It's all just the same... to them

'Cause the aren't the ones living in this body
They aren't the ones living with these thoughts
That haunt me, that taunt me and tell me I am
worthless and that I won't do any good

Bad, weird, useless that's what they whisper in my ear
Loud enough that I can hear but quietly enough so that
NOBODY around me can
Nobody else understands

I see the people that are happy all the time
That have no worries
And I'm jealous

Jealous 'cause I look at myself and see
The girl that nobody understands
The daughter who makes her mother worried

Worried 'cause of her daughter's urge to get out of the house
Worried 'cause she can't stop thinking about the bad things her daughter could be doing
When her daughter hasn't giving her a good enough reason to think that way

Her daughter could be the best in the world
But she will never get the recognition she deserves

Only a few people understand her
But still nobody fully gets it
Because they aren't the ones living it

It hurts...
It hurts to live with a constant reminder of your flaws
And to never hear a compliment pointing out the good things
instead of your wrongs

Stuck

 So what is it that you want me to do?

Do you want me to be like you?

Do I even get a say in my life?

Or do you only get to say what’s supposedly right?

You will be the death of me.

Your words stab my soul painfully

You don’t understand how this feels

Thoughts keep creeping in slowly

These are the things that make me say what I say

These are the things that make me not want to stay

Not want to even live in this place

They make me want to go far away

When I think things are getting better

Life keeps reminding me I am not yet free

I feel like I am drowning more and more

And suddenly life takes a toll on me

It CAN happen...

We all do certain things to get rid of stress, anger, sadness, anxiety, pain, etc. Some people cut or self-harm to get rid of these things, but they are so many other way to release these emotions and get rid of them. You can write your feelings, you can listen to music, put all of your emotions in writing a song, singing a song, and playing an instrument, you can just scream your lungs out, go for a run, exercise, dance, just go for a walk, or just surrender all of your emotions to God and just let Him help you. There are so many ways you can do to deal with your emotions, but people always tend to lean on self-harming. I don't get it. Don't you thinks is better to stop harming your beautiful body and start trying new things? I think you should at leads give it a try. You can try talking to someone you trust and pouring all of your emotions in ever word you say.

You can get better! Things CAN get BETTER! You CAN get through this! You WILL! Life is hard but we have to get back up every time it pushes us down. I believe everyone can get back on there feet. With the right help, the right mind set, and the right motivation. Don't let the world defeat you, don't let society bring you down. Conquer the world and change society. Every time you try harder you are one step closer to completing your goal.

Back to our places...

Back to our places
Back to putting on our brave faces 
Time to put on that fake smile again
And hide our past, our sorrow, and pain

We put on a mask and hope our pain will go away
But we end up feeling worse than yesterday
And instead of talking about it, we think it's better to leave it alone
We never speak of it, not even at home

It seem like the right thing to do
To not tell anyone what we are going through
We think that nobody cares about the messes we make
So we feel that we're left with nothing to say

And while people scream out our names
We lie in our beds thinking everyone has left us astray
And we think we should just die
But we need to talk to someone about what we feel inside.

Risks don't always turn out like we planned.

Sometimes we risk everything and put ourselves in a vulnerable position for someone to later find out that they don't feel the same way. That they are not willing to do those same things for you. Those moments destroy us, but in the end they make us stronger  and make us realize that not everyone is who they say they are. In the end it was all worth it. No matter how hard it was you know it's better to live with the truth then live a lie just to be happy for a little while.

We humans...

We humans are amazed with the idea of love. With the idea of being with someone that cares for you. We love the idea of love. We spent our whole lives searching for it. But what happens when you can't find it?Or somebody you thought loved you just tricked you? Or even when the person you love doesn't love you back? Do we just give up on love.... I don't think that's a good enough reason. Do you?

fake..

Today, there is more fake feelings than real ones. There is more liars, more haters, and more fake people than anything else. That's why it's so easy to get betrayed these days. That's why people stop trusting each other. Because when someone takes advantage of that trust it's hard to trust again.

You shouldn't miss those hugs, which you know meant nothing. You shouldn't miss those days you were together because you know no that he/she was just pretending. You can't miss the love you never truly had or the love that was never truly there.

Someone once said, "People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.", but nobody ever asked why do people build walls. I think we build walls up because we don't want to be hurt the same way we were in the past or we simply don't want to get hurt... Just never forget that there is still true people out there, who care and want to help. So if you ever feel sad or fell like you are alone talk to someone that can help and strive to move on and go forward.

So how are you? Are you a wall or a bridge maker? Are you one of the fake people? Are you the one being hurt?  Are you the one faking feelings and breaking hearts? Are you depressed? Or are you ready for new beginning?

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What we think.

An illusion can be bigger than any reality. What we think is sometimes more powerful than what we see or what we hear. I believe our minds are extremely powerful.

In our minds we create a picture of the things we want, it's like a little movie in our heads. We imagine how we want things to be managed and how we want things to happen. That movie then slowly starts to become our reality and all we think about. That's why we get disappointed so easily, because we want things to go according to what we've imagined in our heads.

Well at least it's  what we think we want... But is it truly what we want?

Running around

Running around
Trying to find my voice
Not making a sound
I feel it's my only choice

Suddenly I am lost in my own world
It is like and awful nightmare
And you can't hear a word
It's an unbearable disaster

Speaking my mind...

It's funny when you realize that something worked out for the best, and you just sit there thinking to yourself that being sad was a waste of time. I know now that it is better this way. Have you ever had those moments? Has this ever happened to you? I still think about what could have been, but I know its better this way.

Random fact... Somethings just never change :)

Be you!

You are your own person! You have your own style. You decide what you do with your life. God gave us free will to chose whatever the heck we want to do. We should be free to express ourselves! But we also need to accept correction and learn how to take criticism. We must be strong in our beliefs to remain firm in this world. This world is full of lies and you must have the wisdom to know what is true and what is not. What is right and what is wrong. So remain yourself and be strong!

I own all of the contents of this post...

Change starts on the inside

And to make that change come alive on the outside

 We sometimes need to unwind

And leave all our dark past behind

By the way i wanted to say that all I post here is written by me unless I say is being quoted.

And also this my photo haha that is my face lol

What I desire...

What we desire 

Isn't always what we acquire

So I go to sleep with a broken spirit

And wait for someone to come and fix it.

But no one comes my way

While everything turns to grey

And I am left in this darkness

Left with all this madness

I've lost my ability to cope,

But never my hope

For my faith is on fire

Because the one thing I desire 

Has come to meet me in this madness 

And take away my sadness

 

Where do I go from here?

I think I understand.

Why we are both so confused. 

But it's just absurd.

Do we even know what to do?

Where do we go from here?

Because silence is all I hear. 

It seems like you've disappeared,

You are no longer near.

I scream your name until I can't any more.

But all I hear is my voice echoing through the unknown.

Where no one even roams.

And I just lie there all alone.

Paradises

Paradise is the place we see in our dreams. The place we think about every time we close and open our eyes, every waking moment of our lives. The place we see when we are asleep.

We all have different paradises just as we all have different ways of thinking, but every paradise has something in common. In everyone's paradise people think about a place where they feel like they belong, and everybody loves feeing like they belong somewhere like they matter.

So where is your paradise?

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Sitting in my room,
Watching the videos that go through,
Tired of these unspoken dream,
Ready to raise my voice and sing.

Letting my heart speak tonight,
Looking at the stars as they shine,
Letting the words run through my mind,
Oh, the sky looks so alive.

For someone.

You are leaving too soon.
And that makes me feel blue.
But I'll get to see you soon.
At least is what I hope to do.

I hope you don't forget about me.
'Cause I need my two am texting buddy.
You know how I feel about the move.
But I know it's what God  wants you to do.

Never let someone take that smile off your face.
For it cannot be replaced.
Have fun on your journey, which we call life.
And never forget to live it right.

Fun fact about me.

I love vintage, old stuff! Especially cars! Here are some pictures ;) Hope yoou like them.