Tricky

Sometimes your mind can be your biggest enemy. You start thinking about all the things that can go wrong, you start to believe that nothing will ever be ok and that you are worth nothing. Our mind can be our worst enemy sometimes, but we must fight it. We need to start thinking positively and believe that everything will be ok. We need to start trusting in people and forget about what can happen if we do. It's easy to get sad and jealous when you care about someone so much. But we must learn to trust them. After all life is about taking risks, making mistakes and learning from, and loving and forgetting.

Learn to look back at your life and learn from all that has happened. Instead of looking back at your life and regretting every choice you've made be happy that you've made it 'cause it has made you the person you are today.

When you start to think that you are worthless or that no one is on your side. Turn those thoughts off and tell yourself you are worth it. And take a look around and realize how many people love you and care for you.

Reminder...

Our stories, our thoughts
Our memories, all gone

What to do, I've stopped feeling
Where to, I've stopped seeing

I scream, HELP! But nobody comes my way
It's all just the same... to them

'Cause the aren't the ones living in this body
They aren't the ones living with these thoughts
That haunt me, that taunt me and tell me I am
worthless and that I won't do any good

Bad, weird, useless that's what they whisper in my ear
Loud enough that I can hear but quietly enough so that
NOBODY around me can
Nobody else understands

I see the people that are happy all the time
That have no worries
And I'm jealous

Jealous 'cause I look at myself and see
The girl that nobody understands
The daughter who makes her mother worried

Worried 'cause of her daughter's urge to get out of the house
Worried 'cause she can't stop thinking about the bad things her daughter could be doing
When her daughter hasn't giving her a good enough reason to think that way

Her daughter could be the best in the world
But she will never get the recognition she deserves

Only a few people understand her
But still nobody fully gets it
Because they aren't the ones living it

It hurts...
It hurts to live with a constant reminder of your flaws
And to never hear a compliment pointing out the good things
instead of your wrongs

Stuck

 So what is it that you want me to do?

Do you want me to be like you?

Do I even get a say in my life?

Or do you only get to say what’s supposedly right?

You will be the death of me.

Your words stab my soul painfully

You don’t understand how this feels

Thoughts keep creeping in slowly

These are the things that make me say what I say

These are the things that make me not want to stay

Not want to even live in this place

They make me want to go far away

When I think things are getting better

Life keeps reminding me I am not yet free

I feel like I am drowning more and more

And suddenly life takes a toll on me

It CAN happen...

We all do certain things to get rid of stress, anger, sadness, anxiety, pain, etc. Some people cut or self-harm to get rid of these things, but they are so many other way to release these emotions and get rid of them. You can write your feelings, you can listen to music, put all of your emotions in writing a song, singing a song, and playing an instrument, you can just scream your lungs out, go for a run, exercise, dance, just go for a walk, or just surrender all of your emotions to God and just let Him help you. There are so many ways you can do to deal with your emotions, but people always tend to lean on self-harming. I don't get it. Don't you thinks is better to stop harming your beautiful body and start trying new things? I think you should at leads give it a try. You can try talking to someone you trust and pouring all of your emotions in ever word you say.

You can get better! Things CAN get BETTER! You CAN get through this! You WILL! Life is hard but we have to get back up every time it pushes us down. I believe everyone can get back on there feet. With the right help, the right mind set, and the right motivation. Don't let the world defeat you, don't let society bring you down. Conquer the world and change society. Every time you try harder you are one step closer to completing your goal.

Back to our places...

Back to our places
Back to putting on our brave faces 
Time to put on that fake smile again
And hide our past, our sorrow, and pain

We put on a mask and hope our pain will go away
But we end up feeling worse than yesterday
And instead of talking about it, we think it's better to leave it alone
We never speak of it, not even at home

It seem like the right thing to do
To not tell anyone what we are going through
We think that nobody cares about the messes we make
So we feel that we're left with nothing to say

And while people scream out our names
We lie in our beds thinking everyone has left us astray
And we think we should just die
But we need to talk to someone about what we feel inside.

Risks don't always turn out like we planned.

Sometimes we risk everything and put ourselves in a vulnerable position for someone to later find out that they don't feel the same way. That they are not willing to do those same things for you. Those moments destroy us, but in the end they make us stronger  and make us realize that not everyone is who they say they are. In the end it was all worth it. No matter how hard it was you know it's better to live with the truth then live a lie just to be happy for a little while.

We humans...

We humans are amazed with the idea of love. With the idea of being with someone that cares for you. We love the idea of love. We spent our whole lives searching for it. But what happens when you can't find it?Or somebody you thought loved you just tricked you? Or even when the person you love doesn't love you back? Do we just give up on love.... I don't think that's a good enough reason. Do you?